things that i'd love to know !!

Well i think nobody will see this my blog so i can use it to say about me ,about my feelings.

So today ,i played my first soccer game since i hurt my foot then it is going hard to me to play like before,but i'm pretending to run again,to do everything again but better than before,more serius.
My position in the life is be happy ,but i have to do things that people don't believe or think that is impossible ,like i love my friend Lucia so much and in my heart she is bigger than friend ,she is my sister!
I really believe that she can loves me too but it's hard for me because unhappy i can't trust in my own parents .
Sometimes i'm here thinking that i'm liking a poor girl doing like this writing my fool things,but everything is true,i'm trying to do corrects ways all the time ,dedicating on my dreams,dreaming things that by myself i cannot be real.
Since i knew Meryl Streep i've had many strong in my life,simply when i can see her movies making me laugh,or making me be happy .Meryl for me isn't a fan ,she is my big inspiration as a mother is to daughter and around her how i said i have the chance meeting special people,people who help me ,help me saying for me:Eloá i'm your friend.Only this make me go on.
I feel that my dreams are differents ,and i also feel that i can be more that the people think,because i can feel something good when i say God.
hehehe it's really funny but my life are my friends ,the friendship is the most important thing for someone,because anyone may be a friend .
I'm not saying that i'm unic person in the world who feels this ,but what i'm saying is totaly what i've had observing the each minute when i'm with the public around me,thinking what do they are think?what do they really want?why did they choice it for their lives? and why do i want to be different and why don't i prefer the normal life?
My thoughts for my life is totaly different because people who i really believed before did somethings really drew my way of thinking about everything.
Only thing i have to say I really Love Meryl Streep but i totaly don't know why,i know that she is a amazing woman,simple,smart,everything,but tell me why did have to be her?
About Friends,when i say "love you",just believe me ,please,because to love someone about years never have to seing to face to face is very hard then one person like me for exemple have to do many patience ,no, better than patience I have the biggest love of the world for you!
Listening true songs.Foregner,Celine Dion,Michael Jackson .

what does she have ?

Oh my god ,I want only to know why do i feel Meryl Streep without know her?
yeah ,i know is totaly crazy,but she makes me dont give up for anything.
Across her i could to meet people who are the most important thing in my life.
when everything bad was about to happen in my life, like the stories with my mother, my father insisted I watch a movie, not regarded iso with the cover, having an embarrassing middle name as the title "The Devil Wears Prada "But at the time there was nothing to cheer me but to watch a movie, just looking one day I had enjoyed 5 movies and one of them was that the the embarrassing lol

Then I felt a feeling good, but did not understand, until my sister came home from school and made me watch it again, before the great discovery is that those people with green eyes gloss touched me the letter of my dreams.

And if today I am what I really am, even though I'm shy that I have to say it was thanks to God for having put Meryl in my way, and knowing true friendships.